2009 was definitely my year to hop off the trains of indecision and
what-ifs. After taking a good hard look at myself after a February 2008 trip to
Mexico, I was frankly embarassed with the state of my fitness and personal
eating habits, and most importantly, my lack of progress or ability to stick to
any sort of discipline in that area. Mmm… did someone say Timbits? I certainly
spoke to far too many sour cream glaze devils during that time period. Of
course I’d always considered myself to be active – with six thousand hobbies
and activities, the time to sit down wasn’t really a luxury. Why, I was Aubrie,
Queen of Six Thousand Places in Five Thousand Hours! So what did I do? I ate a
bit of happiness, one timbit or wing at a time. All of you reading this, if
you’re currently being consolled by Nutella or talking to the pizza box, put it
down. The only conversation that’s happening is with your arteries or other
unsavourably affected body parts. Tomorrow never came, you know, that tomorrow
of “Oh I’ll start tomorrow” or… “I’ll begin my diet tomorrow” or “I deserve
this six pound Toblerone because I’m stressed”….ok…well.. that never happened
but you get my point.
So.... I got off my lazy, unmotivated, discipline lacking tooshie (yes, me!)
and voted to morph into an entirely new person. Aubrie 2.0? I didn’t want to
start another fad diet, I’m not in the “zone” and didn’t want any friggin’
South Beach crap unless I’m actually there with a pina colada in my hand. Dairy,
sugar and alcohol free of course! Wink wink nudge nudge. I worked my way
through some challenges, personally, professionally, spiritually, ethically,
emotionally and basically did a bit of a self-makeover. A bit? A whole
overhaul, more like it. No one ever explains the road of life to
you as accurately as your own blind experience and faith can reveal to
you!
I hired a trainer, and worked with another trainer, ended up with my current
trainer, talked to friends, lost some friends, gained some more friends, and lived
at the gym. I definitely did my nutritional research. Still doing that by
the way, I'm currently working toward a third degree in holistic nutrition.
Fond memories like walking into Popeye’s or GNC and feeling pretty overwhelmed
were definitely part of my experience. Who are these Hulk-looking jacked up men
and why are they trying to sell me mass gainer? What the hell is creatine? And
if I take their witchcraft nutritional supplements, will I grow a beard? Or
relatively beard-equatable biceps?
Diet, muscles, competitions and change represent an equally impressive change
in your lifestyle. Now, before I am cast off as some nutso show oriented
hyperactive gym bunny, I’ll be the first to agree with you. I think I’m nuts,
but I love where I’m at now. I am a gym bunny, I know how to use the machines,
(but won’t because it’s all about free weights baby). Successful
changes reflect the integration of all of these parts with a ton of
dillgence, perserverance, faith and love. And the realization that healthy lifestyles
are very ascriptive to those who prescribe them. This is what I have to do for
my own goals and dreams, and to achieve what I need to achieve. As much as I
consider myself focused and determined, it is for my purposes alone. But I’m
happy to share tips and tricks!
In conclusion, this is my dream. It’s my goal, and this is what it takes to
achieve it. My dream is to be there in lights, after countless weeks of boiling
chicken and steaming asparagus and 5:00am wakeup sessions for cardio,
stairmasters and anything that gets my heart racing faster and faster each
time. At the beginning of a show as I’m gluing my suit to my teeny tiny
tanned body that’s seen six million jumping lunges and dying for water, let
alone anything you can buy in a grocery store, I know I have put my blood,
sweat and tears into this moment.
This train hasn’t stopped since I started and it’s going into 2010 with renewed
optimism. And one hell of a training fueled offseason – I’ve got a few shows to
win. This is my goal, my dream; my hope is that you pursue yours with the
endless passion and dedication that helps you achieve whatever it is that you
hold close to your heart.